In a mind of a big girl...

Big girl, yea thats what they call me..How does it feel being big all your life, well i know for sure...I cant even tell when I ever wore a size 4, 7, or even a 10 lol...seems like I skipped those sizes in an instant. Now when I was a baby prob up until the age of 6 or 7 I was actually an average sized child then once I turned 8 that is when it went down hill...I tried to figure out the reason I gained so much weight over the years, and I took it as a rough childhood. See I wasnt the most popular, or the most liked..i like to call it I was an"outsider". And by being that label, I had to go all out, I wasnt your quiet shy outsider I was one of the most I will go off on you, and fight you if I have to type of person because I felt I had to take up for myself..My mother or my father was not in the picture..My 2 sisters was with a woman that was raising them, and I was with my grandma, brother and uncle..So i didnt neccesarily had an ideal childhood..I mean i look back and seen how I was picked on and called out my name, shunned, and everything you named it, and the only thing that kept me sane was the church and God...honestly, that was my only escape out of realithy and a place I know that there is hope..As I grew older into the woman I am now...I had to find my self worth, and know how precious I am to God...cause He is the only that matters..I think my hurt of me growing up and being rejected even once I became an adult, had an effect on my eating habits. I had to realize that the enemy is trying to keep me down with my weight concluding with my past. But I have to stand up and get my life back with the Help of God..now I have been working out faithfully without missing a beat, lost 20 pounds in a 6 weeks and still counting, and all i can do is keep God first and ask for grace with my weightloss journey and spiritual journey..neither is easy, but i know all things is possible with Christ..so i keep pressing towards the mark and high calling which is in Christ Jesus..and do my best to be what God has called me to be, which is a conqueror...Its so much more to speak of in my life but imma have to do it in segments of my testimony...but what i am saying is, everyonbe has some type of obsession or addiction whether its sex, weed, drinks, materal, ect whatever, get down to the root of why your addicted to such a thing and ask God to help you with that deep seated issue, because the thing that we turn to may be the thing that will kill us...

The world ending in May 21 2011

Well all I have to say about that is LOL HA, hot mess.... ok well its these videos of "prophets" he going around stating that the world is going to end on May 21rst, 2011,..they have got this date from some timeline dated back to "The Flood of noah" to now, And they are like well no one believed Noah when he was telling everyone the flood is near, and i guess they consider themselves modern noahs as you will. But I am like just let it go, in the Bible, it states "No man knows the day nor the hour of Christ return, not even Christ knows when He returns", only God, now that is why we have the Bible so we can look for His signs and wonders, and watch while as pray, in the Bible it says be sober and awake, as the world is drunken and sleep...cause you never know when Jesus is coming, thats why it is good to be ready and get your life right.. cause the wages of sin is death and the gift of God is eternal life.

Getting Closer with God

Well i have not written in a few weeks, been on vacation. But a scripture touched me, well actually a song by Fred Hammond Draw Nigh, James 4:8 Draw nigh unto God and He will draw nigh to you. Cleanse your hands yea sinners; and purify your hearts, ye double minded. I like this scripture, my desire is just to do that I want to draw nigh unto God, but sometimes I hold myself back from getting closer with my lover. I pray that I and my sis and brothers in Christ faint not. This walk with Christ is not easy, but its worth it. You have to lose your life to live for Christ but its worth it. As I get closer with God and seeing how its a difference when your not save and going through, from when you have Christ and going through. When you read the Word and get encouraged, or sing songs unto Him, or even get alone and talk to God, He lets you know that everything will be ok if you trust in Him, and thats why I serve a God like Him. I can say I know the truth. I dont know who reads my blogs, but I hope whoever does read this that it might can encourage you...

In a mind of a born-again young woman week ending 06/13

Well this week was a good week, but I felt spiritually week on my behalf. I know this week I was not doing what I needed to do as what I should of been doing to stay spiritually strong. When you become spiritually weaken, its like old thoughts starts to come back, the enemy tries to talk to you and tell you things which you know its not true, but you believe it anyway. But I prayed a prayer of spiritual strength to keep on in this faith and He hath heard me. My main reason i felt that way I ended up reading a hood book call "Black and Ugly as ever". Now I usually dont get down with books like that because of all the bad language and sexual words in the book, and what you sow to the spirit you reap by the spirit. I was bored at work and a fellow co-worker let me see the book and it was a good book, but while i was attending to that book and not the Bible as I should, Then the enemy started to speak, and was like dont you miss sex, dont you miss going out, look how exciting the life is or etc. Now in this book, it was nothing about violence, sex, drugs and homosexuality all up in it. Nothing to be feeding your spirit to and I had to repent on behalf of it cause I knew I was wrong...But I thank God for just helping me to restore my strength in Him and spirit so that I may set aside and let Him use me for His purpose. The moral to this week is, for the ones that is in Christ, Keep up the good faith in Christm sometimes it can be tough especially for someone that is a young woman or man out here maintaing to stay holy, In Isaiah 26: 3-4...Thou wilt keep him in perfect peace, whose mind is stayed on thee, because he trusteth in thee. Trust ye in the Lord forever: for in the Lord Jehovah (my provider) is everlasting strength. I know that my God will keep me in perfect peace as long as I abide to my Fathers business...To those that dont know the Lord and is reading this, some things that you use to entertain yourself with isnt always good. Satan uses everything to make you even more bound up then ever. You have to know that Satan comes to kill, steal and destroy, and he knows that his time is up and he is trying to put up all the stops, think about it Sex, ok its made for marriage but when you use it out of context and outside of that, look whats the consequences, out of wed lock pregnancy, stds, aids, perversion(molestation, rape), homosexuality etc. And what is the consequence of that, death... The wages of sin is death and the gift of God is external life, through Christ Jesus Romans 6:23.. or lying, stealing, jealousy, rage, anger, drinking, smoking (and yes weed is a drug lol), clubbing, even the music is corrupt, but that us another blog to write about, but God loves you, and does not want none of us to perish but to have everlasting life, but He made it our decesions to choose whom you shall serve.. with Christ its no price to pay cause He has already paid it, if anyone that is reading this and need someone to speak with privately, email me at lalalyn04@yahoo.com, and I can pray for you, Love you all and know that Jesus loves you as well...Peace

My Testimony

Hello you guys have not blogged in awhile and decided to do so, to share a little bit of my life and mind with you all amd that i may help or touch someones life....Well so far so good..I am def starting to learn more about walking with Christ, from just going to church religiously..My born again date was Oct. 18th, a sunday after church in my living room, I was just so tired of the way I was living, and I decided to just give my life to God...I had to learn that since my past has been forgiven, i hade to also forgive myself of what I did to myself and how i turned my back on God when I was younger. Sometimes I wish that I would not had allowed friends and wanting to be accepted stray me away from God because when your in sin i learned, that satan holds you back from what your true destiny is or being at your full potential, all satan try to have you do is get deep in sin, and living life to the fullest with no rules meaning drink, smoke, have sex with everyone, and get rich right!!!!That was my goal, but that didnt neccesarily happen the way i thought, all i got out of being friends with satan was a child, defiling my body big time, messing up my liver with drinking and turning my heart cold against God and men....But God, I thank Him for among that dark time in my life He was right there all along, He carried me along the way, making sure His child was taking care of it. But I learned from my mistakes, and all I can do now is give God all my praise and glory, and thank Him for saving me.
Sometimes you have to humble yourself and realize that you cant make it on your own or depend on a person to help you along, I learned all you need is God. When your sad who do you run too, when your angry who do you run too, when your lonely who do you run to...I've learned that your friends isnt always there, same as your family..John 3:16 God so loved the world that he gave His only Begotten Son!!! God sent His son down to die for us. Jesus went to hell for us and stole the keys to death so that we may live once we die. Jesus loves you soooo much you cant even imagine, and look back on your life to see what situations you could of been in, where God stepped in and said no, sometimes we blame God for things that happen to us or what is happening..but alot of times we need to blame outself cause we allow ourself to get into the situation...God loves you!! and that is a bit of my testimony

Mixed Feelings

Well I guess i should start my blog off with something to do with love. I hate when people try to send mixed emotions when your in love. I mean I can understand you dont want to get hurt or your afraid its not going to work.But I mean you have to realize that the other person is feeling the same way is you but they are not allowing that to come between the love they have for you. Its only so much the other can take from the one that is being fickle or questioning the thought or fact of being in love. I feel that sooner or later the person is going to get hurt while the other leaves awa with peace. If you love someone I have learned you love them unconditionally. No flaw is important cause you accept it. You think about them constantly and being around them makes your day. Money is not important and if they are down you will do your best to bring a smile on their face. I feel that if you feel that way about that special someone then dont hesitate or dont stop the feeling..keep going before the other gets fed up because of those mixed emotions and leave you.

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